Roxanne was admitted on Tue night again, bleeding almost two-third of a pad full of blood.
As we rushed down to KKH yet again, we held hands and this time, both of us had an inner peace in our heart.
Earlier in the afternoon, God had shown us Roman 8. In times like this when everything is shaking, a Rhema Word of God is such an encouragement:
- Verse 18 affirms us, “Our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us.“
- Verse 19 reminds us of our beloved parents, “The creation waits in eager expectation for the sons of God to be revealed.” We have to stand in faith in anticipation that God will be honoured and glorified before them in this process.
- Verse 24 challenges us to keep the faith, “For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what he already has?“
- Verse 28 – One of my favourite verse. Need I say more.
- Verse 32 seems to be God’s direct answer / assurance to me that my child will be delivered, “He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things?“
Nevertheless, a Christian’s journey is one of testing. We would never require faith if there are no tests or trials.
Somehow, God seems to be allowing plenty of it right now. Please pray for us that we will overcome all of our current hurdles:
- Roxanne had minor contractions this time round. She stayed in the delivery room for one whole night and day. Baby is right now exactly 25 weeks. Still too early. The doctor on midnight duty proposed steroid injection when she learnt of Roxanne’s bleeding and contractions. Steroid injection speeds up the fetus’s lung development, in case of preterm delivery. The lungs is the most critical organ of a baby, such that preterm babies often do not survive because their lungs are not developed enough to breathe properly yet. However, the Maternal Fetal (MF) Team, a team in charged of high risk cases, disagreed with administering steroids at this time. They wanted to wait and see and time the injection of steroids at the best time.
- Doctors have told us that our baby’s abdominal size is too small. It falls in the third percentile range. This means that compared to other fetuses, our baby’s tummy is so small that she belongs to the smallest 3% of all fetuses in her age range. A doctor explained that such abnormality could be due to Down syndrome, infections, disruptive bloodflow from placenta etc. They did all the scans and checks on Roxanne but our baby’s small size is still unexplained. We did not do the Down syndrome test though earlier on and it is inaccurate to do it now.
- It has been pretty discouraging with regards to infections. Infections in women is fairly common, and even more so in pregnant women. Though we often observe our hygiene and everything, Roxanne has got one infection after another. First, she had Garnerella, caused by a lack of good bacteria in her body. We cured that by taking yoghurt. Then, Group D enderocuccus species was discovered, which we cured by prescribed antibodies. Just when we thought that’s the last, she was found to have another infection. The antibodies she took for Group D species probably killed off her good bacteria again, resulting in yeast infection. Nevertheless, each infection is less severe and damaging to baby than the previous one. Maybe, it’s perseverance finishing its work, according to James 1.
Good things to give thanks for amidst everything
Despite all this that are happening, God is continuing to show us His providence. My work has been affected somewhat as I am not able to pick up new projects. I will be deferring my reservist so that will be a lost of income as well. Nevertheless, God is providing, as He has always done so. Always as He promised.
It seems like relationships at home have taken a little hit especially with how I stood up against people praying other forms of prayer other than Christ’s over our child. But love never fails. Much has been restored and I am thankful for that.